I have many female heroes. People I look up to for one reason or another. Sometimes I wish I could no longer be me and simply take one or two attributes from each of these women, put them together, and make a new me. How wonderful would that be? If that were the case maybe I would FINALLY be comfortable in my own skin. I can’t really say which attribute I would like to take from each woman, but from the women I idolize there would be many great things to take from each. Here is the list because they all deserve recognition, (and because I find myself with nothing else to do at the moment).
-Shanna Moakler (Barker)
….etc. I am sure I have left out some of those influential women. They all have so much. Not to mention so much of what I wish I had. Maybe in my next life I will be made over into something beautiful. At least, one can only hope.
Add a comment July 2, 2006
Last night I had dinner with someone who has been in my life for three years now. Our relationship has been an unconventional one. It amazes me that he still asks if I will move in with him. He has been asking since October and I keep saying no. I keep wondering why we have stayed in this quasi-relationship as long as we have. What keeps us attached to one another? We have both drifted in and out of each other’s lives, we have had so many things happen to us, and yet we still come back to each other. It amazes me. I don’t know why I can’t let him go. He is the one I have compared all others too and no one has come close. He is everything I want. Now, if we could just get our lives together as two different people, so we would be able to live together as a couple. It’s so strange to me that he has been in my life all this time and has been always more than a friend, but never quite a “boyfriend”. I don’t know what is to become of us, but I’m sure it will be an adventure getting there. I don’t know if we’ll ever live together or if we’ll ever be in a committed relationship, but he is the one bright spot in my life. That has always been, and will continue to be, true.
Add a comment June 30, 2006
So, I had a communication break down with someone on Saturday.The thing is, I thought we were communicating fine. I thought everything was understood…that is, until he told me it wasn’t. Just because we spend together doesn’t mean we’re indebted, does it? I don’t know how it was misunderstood. I am sorry that it happened though because now I think he’s gone for good, (on his own accord), but we were having such a blast. So, if he ever comes across this, please know that you are amazing. You have so much to offer this world, never doubt that. Never doubt yourself. You will do great things. I wish you all the best in your new venture. Someday I’ll be able to say I knew you when.
For the future, (and for everyone’s reference), I entreat you…all of you, just let things go. Live life day by day and stop looking towards the future for answers. It’s such a waste because life is too short. In my situation, 3 days of bliss were ended because of a thought of what could happen in the future.
Add a comment June 28, 2006
There are so many places I want to travel and since I make everything into lists I thought maybe I should make my travel destinations into a list so I could keep track of them. I may forget some in the primary list, but maybe one day I will modify the list and add more locations. Some of the places are general areas and others are landmarks/countries/cities, etc.
-the isle of Elba
-the Chateau d'If in Marseille
-Niagara (Maid of the Mist)
-burial plots of: Marilyn Monroe, Elvis Presley, Diana: Princess of Wales, Sharon Tate, Howard Hughes, Grace Kelly, Johnny Cash, June Carter, those lost in the tragedy in the Andes
-the Hollywood Walk of Fame
-Grauman's Chinese Theater
-the Andes mountains
Add a comment June 26, 2006
This is an introduction to my new blog. I will probably still have the one on My Space, but this one will be quite a bit different. On this blog I will be posting a variety of items. There maybe song lyrics, stories (fiction and non-fiction), poems I have written, musings, discussion topics, questions I have for humanity, dream analysis, my annoyances, etc. Enjoy!
Add a comment June 26, 2006